| This thread has so many happy memories of people I care about, it is difficult to come here knowing it is so empty |
Even if the thread is empty now... that's only more reason to fill it up again. New memories, new friends. There are plenty of people around who might one day come and play in this space, if we let them feel welcome. How many times in the life of the thread have people thought long gone turned up again? One thing I know, they probably won't go digging for the thread. And don't morn overmuch for the people who are not here now... it is not necessarily an abandonment. I know for sure feline is so busy he can barely think straight. He was so busy and tired when he was here last he may have seemed tired or distracted or aloof. But how else would someone sound after working 60+ hours a week for months and months without ever even taking a day off? I really do worry about him... He might could do with an email. As for me... I'm fighting back from a whole lot of things. I was before too. I had been going through so many losses it was hard to think I could lose more, but I did. My family is mostly gone now, or distant. I have a lot of health problems and it hurts just to walk... but you know what? I figured... I'm not waiting to feel good any more. I'm not waiting for my life to be free of loss and missing people and troubled people. So I am going out and rebuilding a new life with new things and new people. And I will keep coming in here too... because I don't plan on dismissing fond memories as something that was here and now gone. A memory, once you make one, is yours forever. And the joy that was there the day you forged it is the same joy it carries with it today... else you have changed it into something different.
for me, the hard part right now is physical. I get really tired and sore after a day out. So it is hard to sit by the computer. But life is getting better, little by little.
/me steps off the soap box and goes to make supper.