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What do you suggest I do?

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What do you suggest I do?

from JoeUser Forums
Ok, I really only want to say one thing. What do you want me to do? Do you really suggest that I change from me to something I'm not? Just pondering. I really am sorry that I can't be the kinda of person you want to have as a friend. I really can't help that I'm not as girly as you. I just wish you'd except me for me and nothing else. Believe me, I do accept you for you and nothing else. I didn't call you bitch, I don't think you're one either. But this time, it might take me longer to forgive you, compared to the other times I forgave you. I know you didn't mean to yell, but you still lashed out and hurt my feelings. All I can say is that I wanted to help so much. But I just got in the way. So maybe I'll just not help anyone anymore. Does that sound good to you? I don't know. Just tell why everything about me is so wrong. I can't help that God wanted me to be this way. I'm sorry.

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Reply #26 from JoeUser Forums Top
All I'm going to say, now, is thank you for tanking another swing and totally strangely solving this conflict.

Just allow me to give a few more words...

If anyone ever sees me as a person that just doesn't care or won't listen, even if I say I am, I'm not that kind of person. No body should worry about it but I have my own little wall up and when I feel it's being attacked I fight back. When I feel that someone is attacking me I strike back anyway I find most suitable. I'm sorry that I took your (Ashley's) connections between Alex finding out you liked him and me knowing as me telling him the way I did. I felt I was being attacked and I have learned from my sisters that I should strike back. Please, if you can forgive me for what I said in response. I meant a lot of what I said but I don't think that the way I said it was "right". I'm trying to get myself away from doing that and Sarah is helping a lot (though I don't know if she realizes it or not).

Thank you, Gideon, for (what's the word?) powerfully showing me that I have done it again.

Once again, I'm glad this is solved for the time and hopefully I can totally forgive soon too.

Capt. over and out!