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Msgboard Chatroom Marathon

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Honestly, I would go to IRC for this kind of stuff, but if any of you have been there recently, everyone seems to be...inactive. Sooooooooo, out of boredom, I'm turning a thread among this msgboard into a chat room, anyone care to join? =P.

It's Sunday night, and I'm bored out of my mind. There's much to do, but I'm too lazy to get around to do it. My boyfriend is busying trying to get Visual Studios to work so I can't talk to him on the phone....and we can't seem to talk over the phone anyways...it'll just be silence mostly.

New Semester started........so anyone alive out there to join Elffie in this chat marathon? =P

Let's try not to let this post hang for over 2 hours, hm? =P
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Reply #12726 from WinCustomize Forums Top
Skinner Weaksid - Where's OC?


the fairies don't want me to tell anyone about the large chocolate mud pool right outside of his front door!

there is a concern that if there is to much cavorting around outside his front door the noise might wake him up!

so of course i am sworn to secrecy, and i have been covering all of the signs with GM's spare outfits, so as to hide the words. it is ok to leave GM with nothing to wear, in order to keep this a secret, isn't it? only i ran out of outfits of fuzzy's to use on the signs.

*um* does that mean all fuzzy has left to wear is the prity jacket with the buckles???

feline *innocent expression number 27*
Reply #12727 from WinCustomize Forums Top
goodmorphing - ...but making a private bet with myself who gets the ticklefeathers and chocolate handcuffs IS rather interesting...


so, does this mean we get to try out BOTH the chocolate handcuffs and the tickle feathers on GM? *big grin*
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Reply #12728 from WinCustomize Forums Top
goodmorphing - See? the spy cam caught feline shaking fuzzy down for chocolate again..


proof the camera lies!!!
i was trying to protect my chocolate from fuzzy! see, i am the one staging a slow and careful retreat in the face of him trying to tickle my chocolate out of me!!!

plus, it seems to me that GM has been naughty, running around spying on us with her camera...
Reply #12729 from WinCustomize Forums Top
*suspects i know what hypnotised fuzzy*!

i suspect she was overcome by thoughts of all that chocolate!

*considers* speaking of chocolate, where is this vat exactly?
Reply #12730 from WinCustomize Forums Top
hi
Reply #12731 from WinCustomize Forums Top
I know what to do with a naughty GM... ***SPANK*** ***SPANK*** ***SPANK***
Reply #12732 from WinCustomize Forums Top

*considers* speaking of chocolate, where is this vat exactly?

Here, let me show you... *dunk* *splash* *gurgle*

Fuzzy Logic likes the new chocolate coated cat toy

Reply #12733 from WinCustomize Forums Top
Sorry, my Name Server hasn't gotten completely update yet. It's a little behind It should be finished within the next 48hours. (I hope)
Reply #12734 from WinCustomize Forums Top
To Skinner Weaksid.........here I am! Too much to do, ahhhhhhh me. Have to get my rice fields going...planted and all. Hardly have time to peruse the thread anymore. Anyway ... hello everyone....what's this..."Big Cheese" Karma Girl......is that Limberger or Head Cheese? FL....there's a chocolate paddle....somewhere...you'll just have to wrestle GM for it though. Feline. Feline. Ohhhhhh....um...O.K. **expression #14573** you figure that one out!

Bah...Humbug ... Grand Raspberries to all and to all a good night or day.
Reply #12735 from WinCustomize Forums Top
Don't over do yourself on those rice fields You should be planting coco trees
Reply #12736 from WinCustomize Forums Top

Who's X?

 

Reply #12737 from WinCustomize Forums Top
Fuzzy Logic likes the new chocolate coated cat toy


*MUNCH* *MUNCH* *MUNCH* *MUNCH* *MUNCH*
*MUNCH* *MUNCH* *MUNCH* *MUNCH* *MUNCH*
*MUNCH* *MUNCH* *MUNCH* *MUNCH* *MUNCH*

feline looks around
feline considers looking embarrassed, but dismisses this as a silly idea
feline seems to have run out of chocolate in this vat to eat!
feline *POUT*
Reply #12738 from WinCustomize Forums Top
Who's X?



LOL @ Master cheese's smiley
Reply #12739 from WinCustomize Forums Top
I can't remember how long I've been away, but I have a feeling I will continue to be away. This semester is coming to an end. With two papers, one journal, one portfolio, one manuscript, and one quiz due at the end of this week, I'm slowly becoming addicted to headache medication... which is not good.

But the journey isn't over. I've learned so much, got a whole new perspective, haven't had drama in my life for about two years now... I can't say I miss it. Four more semesters... 17 hours each... and I should walk with two degrees.

I should change my name... Elfkura is just not fitting anymore.
Reply #12740 from WinCustomize Forums Top
KG, How did you manage to get your title changed? I liked that x smiley image

Elfkura, Welcome back! Did you think this thread would last this long? If you change your name, nobody will know who you are I go to school too, but I still get on here. I'm almost done. I'm on my 7th quarter at ITT-Tech. But it's probably alot different from what you're doing. My fiancee will be leaving with two degrees this December. So, I do know what you're probably going through. She's doing Elementry Ed and High School Spanish, with a Minor in Elementry Spanish, plus ESL certified, and some other stuff. All I can say is, it should be worth it when you're done.

It was good to see you show up again.
Reply #12741 from WinCustomize Forums Top

feline considers looking embarrassed, but dismisses this as a silly idea
feline seems to have run out of chocolate in this vat to eat!

Hmmm, does this mean the chocolate coating has 'worn' off? Fuzzy Logic applies the replacement canvas, leather strap and buckle coating...

There, don't you feel more comfortable now?
Reply #12742 from WinCustomize Forums Top

I should change my name... Elfkura is just not fitting anymore.

True, 'nurse' sounds a lot better... It just so happens there's a spare uniform...  

Reply #12743 from WinCustomize Forums Top
True, 'nurse' sounds a lot better... It just so happens there's a spare uniform...


I'll tell you one thing I do miss... things like that and the people here in this thread. I've had a feeling this thread would last... after all, it's feline and Fuzzy Logic we're talking about. They never end

School really shouldn't have been this hard to finish, or this much work. However, I brought all of this upon myself. I goofed off the first two years, so now I'm making up for it. But, it is good to know that when I try, I succeed.

I would look forward to graduation, but I fear the outside world. Unfortunately, that is just part of who I am. I'm a pisces, look it up

I'm ready to finish school though, get a job. People tell me school's so much easier. However, I've got a thing or two to say about that. I've held on to this rant for ages, and I'm waiting for the day I graduate to write a nice long letter to the advisors of this university exactly how much I had to go through and put up with to be where I am today.

"You can always make new friends" is a pretty crappy comeback and/or advice, IMO.
Reply #12744 from WinCustomize Forums Top
I do have a question though...

I see two referrals to this thread. What does that mean?
Reply #12745 from WinCustomize Forums Top
The referals is when a vistor comes from a external link to the thread, skin, etc.

I actually looked at this thread's referals:
1.totalgaming.net (9 Referral(s))
2. teen-pussy.cxa.de (3 Referral(s))

Interesting that there are 3 referals from a porn site.

"You can always make new friends" is a pretty crappy comeback and/or advice, IMO.


I agree. I've heard that most of the time you don't have time to make friends. You're too busy doing the sh*t load work to even meet people.

I have a quarter and a half left of school and I just want to quit now. I don't see the point in finishing it. I'm starting my own biz which I already have 3 clients on deck for the website development. But for $34,000 for 2years, I might as well finish it up. Well, good luck with yours

I think Elfkura could use a chocolate dip
Reply #12746 from WinCustomize Forums Top
Well, I tell advisors that one of the reasons why I did so badly first two years, and partially into my third year, was simply I couldn't cope with being here alone, no friends, no relatives, no family. Which is true. I also goofed off a bit because Wincustomize was more fun than math homework.

Every last one of them tells me "you can always make new friends."

That is just absolute crap. Until I was 20 years old, I've moved the same number of times as my age... that averages once a year. Most of it was spread out between ages 1-8, I only moved four times once I got to Malaysia. Making friends for 3-6 months didn't really sit well with me as a kid. Make friends? I want to reach over and slap those advisors across the face. And even if I did make friends... it solves only 1/3 of the equation. Can I make relatives and family too while I'm at it?

What a load of crap. And when I look at them in disbelief, they think I'm just not willing to work at it. One advisor told me "oh, but I moved here from another state too, and so I know how you feel."

If I didn't have anger management issues before I came to college..... I think I do now. Move across the state?!... I moved across the !@#%!#$ ocean for crying out loud. Where your home is a 3-6 hour flight.. mine's a 2 and a half days flight. I have to buy special phone cards to call home. I can't just pick up my cellphone and dial a number.

There are just some things people will say to me that makes me honestly want to hurt somebody.

It doesn't matter how far you move, none of it is easy. Coping with it will never be easy. Some people just have a better time with it than others. I never had my dad around when I was growing up. I'm not terribly close to my mom (not until recently... I make giant strides to actually get involved with my parents) but she's always been around. Try flying across the state line and not suffer a culture shock. Then try fly across the border and not suffer a culture shock. Now try it over the ocean. Then come back and tell me "you can always just make new friends."

I don't know if it's just because I'm just overly emotional or whatever else, but some things really just don't make sense to me. I'm pretty sure a couple more years down the line, this would be like breathing, there's nothing to it. But when you first take those first steps... God forbid you get the crap scared out of you.

Elfkura sighs

Well, shoot. I've done it again. Oh well, I'm ranted out till the month of June.

A chocolate dip would be wonderful. BTW, is karmagirl around? I've got some girl things I would like to chat about
Reply #12747 from WinCustomize Forums Top
Feel better since you ranted?
"Better out than in"

KG floats in and out. You could try her e-mail. Click on her name and it should be there if she made it public.
Reply #12748 from WinCustomize Forums Top

I always have a hard time with naming things (good thing I don't have kids).  Names evolve... the things that happen around you, the things that make people callus and unhappy and headachy and sad.. they shouldn't determine what you choose to respond to.  Those things, though they may seem to endure on and on and on... they are really not the be all and end all of life.  keep ringing the bell you want to hear (elfkura) and let it guide your course.  It seems to have done well by you so far (painful though that may seem right now).

I really miss school, but not exactly for the classes (important as some of them might seem).  School is a collection of people, some of which you may relate to like no others.  It's easy access to ideas and cultures and thoughts and dreams of a squillion people.  And the classes, and the paperwork, and the admins.... they are like an obstacle course you have to run.

Having friends used to seem more important to me than now.  But I was always kind of a loner-type people.  I found out that I had to be a good friend to myself, and then I could relate to the people around me.  The true friends I have, the strongest relations that I have forged are spread pretty much throughout the world (many I have never met).  In fact, my natal family ended up spread throughout the country more distant emotionally than good friends continents away.  I think that if you carry someone in your heart the distance is nothing.  And the primary person you need to carry there is yourself (the world according to me.... and the terms 'you and yourself' are generic in nature -- feel free to toss the idea out if it doesn't fit).

Whoever told you *you can always make more friends* is probably someone who has been sheltered from real loss.  Because if you cherished someone and then that person  is gone, there is no recreating that one person.  People live on from that because there is no alternative.  People keep building their lives and letting new people into their hearts, and one day a new person will spark some passion.  That will never diminish the feeling for a missing friend, though.  It's very true.  You really can make more friends.  What you cannot do is replace them.

The friendships you make on the internet are real friendships.  They are as valid as the ones close up and in person.  Seems to me the feeling of "friendship" is largely a sensation and a reality conjured up within a person, not something that can be externally defined and regulated.  Therefore, don't feel so all alone if you only have someone from the virtual arena to touch bases with.  We are, all of us, real.

And good for you for keeping a bead on your goals.  For reaching out for the future you want.  If you can, relax some now and then and come and play if you want. 

goodmorphing steps down from the soap box...

I'm not trying to lecture, really. 

Reply #12749 from WinCustomize Forums Top
Oh yeah, much better. Although, I've never really felt all that bad since I've turned my focus to just my studies. For the most part, nothing pisses me off anymore outside of my life. I use to be so involved into controversial stuff, but now, after my hiatus, I don't really care about it anymore. Sometimes I'll start caring, and then I'll stop, back off, and ask myself what I'm doing. I'm a pisces. I run on emotion, and that's not too good last time I checked (hence my unforgivable outburst against Jafo and many others before I disappeared). I've learned a lot, and as you've probably noticed, I've not stepped out of the confines of this thread. I don't know what to expect of myself anymore.

I do credit my English degree for the dramatic change though. When you've read stuff, thought about it critically, and finally debate it out face-to-face with people in real life, you learn to take a step back from the online confrontations. It's the exact same thing. The only extra variable is the computer hardware. It has taught me a lot about just being a person. I don't have to shoulder the cares of the world. There are only certain things I need to care about. First off is my family. Second is my school work and my boyfriend. Third is myself. Fourth is the most general. Just be a good human being. People are going to disagree with you, that's a fact one just has to accept.

I used to think that my opinions mattered a lot. They don't. Actually, they mean close to nothing. The only reason why it meant something was because other people made a point for it to mean something. Without others, I'm nothing.

These last two to three years, I've learned something from my mom. One of her company workers didn't tell her that the Norton Antivirus software wasn't working. Instead, he went outside and bought a pirated version of an anti-virus software. At first I thought the same thing, it wasn't that big of a deal. Man, was I dead wrong.

It doesn't matter what I think or believe, laws are laws. Every company must conduct itself a certain way. Whatever happens in that company, one person was ultimately responsible, and that person is my mother. If the government cracked down on it, she goes to jail, not the person who bought the pirated software.

This brings me to think back to the days when I fought Jafo day in and day out about the belief he had about such a strict system. I realized one thing. I was in the wrong. It didn't matter what Jafo believed. It didn't matter what I believed. Only one thing matters, that Brad stays out of trouble because if anything goes wrong in Stardock or Wincustomze, Brad can ultimately be held responsible. There is no gray area there anymore. Laws are laws. And quite frankly, no one should challenge it just because he or she feels like it. If you or I don't take the fall, someone else will, and that person may be Brad.

After that lesson, I feel inadequate to be here. Jafo will probably never forgive me for what I've said. I don't blame him. I've got a feeling many people won't either, but that's in the past. Nothing I can do about that now. Only thing I can do is learn from my mistakes and never make them again.
Reply #12750 from WinCustomize Forums Top

You are definitly not inadequate to be here. 

Ideas and emotions and happenstance are the ebb and the tide of life.  Stand sturdy, be yourself and things will be OK.  Everything is not frozen as it was that moment on that night.  Regrets, passions... personal growth all happened between then and now, for all of us.  That's what life is about.

Come.  Play, relate, relax.  You belong here as much as any of us.