Famous Last Words
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In my last entry I said I wouldn't be a fool. Boy, was I wrong.
Everything has kind of imploded. It's this huge horrible mess, and I'm trying to move on. I've just got so much bitterness inside me right now that I don't know that I can. He doesn't live here anymore. He's going to try to start a new relationship... nothing big.. just dating, but still. I've given up on the guy that I was interested in, more or less. I mean, overtly less.... subvertly, not necessarily. I mean, I did just get some smokin' hot new clothes! I'm feeling pretty good about the way I look for the first time in years. So, I guess it's time to take advantage of it.
Basically, here's where my life truly starts over. This is the first night of the rest of my new life... being with all of my friends that I have here in town. Ex and I are trying to build a friendship, and I hope that it works out well. I do wish him well in life and hope that things can work out in the future with him and he can learn to be happy... or something like that.
I just realized that I don't love him really any more... at least not like I used to. All of the hurts aren't as bad more or less because I realize that I'm angry not because I loved him, but because I had been in love with him. Or something like that.
Everything has kind of imploded. It's this huge horrible mess, and I'm trying to move on. I've just got so much bitterness inside me right now that I don't know that I can. He doesn't live here anymore. He's going to try to start a new relationship... nothing big.. just dating, but still. I've given up on the guy that I was interested in, more or less. I mean, overtly less.... subvertly, not necessarily. I mean, I did just get some smokin' hot new clothes! I'm feeling pretty good about the way I look for the first time in years. So, I guess it's time to take advantage of it.
Basically, here's where my life truly starts over. This is the first night of the rest of my new life... being with all of my friends that I have here in town. Ex and I are trying to build a friendship, and I hope that it works out well. I do wish him well in life and hope that things can work out in the future with him and he can learn to be happy... or something like that.
I just realized that I don't love him really any more... at least not like I used to. All of the hurts aren't as bad more or less because I realize that I'm angry not because I loved him, but because I had been in love with him. Or something like that.