Stop all the screaming in my head! Jesus calms.
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I woke up insanely early this morning to several crashing sounds coming from the living room. Damn cat! I jumped out of bed to scare some sense into him, only to find that I didn't know what the noise had been. Yes, it was the cat, looking guilty as ever, but I couldn't find what he'd been in to. Oh well, he settled back down.
On my way back to bed, I didn't feel tired, so I thought of staying up..."and doing what?" I thought. So it was enough to put me back into bed. I'd been angry. I went to bed angry the night before. The cat made me angry that morning, and as I lay down, the dream I'd been having when I was awakened entered my mind, and it occured to me how absurd and helter-skelter it was, due to my state of mind.
Then from out of nowhere, calm washed over me. A moment of clarity. First I pictured myself running around doing all the meaningless things I do all day, and swirling them all around my baby boy. Then in contrast, it all washed away, and calm was left. I was with my baby teaching him the most important things. Gone were the voices screaming in my head, instead was calm and truth, so strong that no other influences could overpower it.
How can I escape the insanity that rules my world, so that peace can take over? Jesus. Um, yeah...but, Jesus isn't on TV, Jesus isn't in my home, Jesus isn't at the park, Jesus isn't at the grocery store. Those are the things that occupy my mind & my time. I guess I ought to change all that.
Because in my little moment of clarity I pictured Jesus. And it was truth and calm. So simple.
On my way back to bed, I didn't feel tired, so I thought of staying up..."and doing what?" I thought. So it was enough to put me back into bed. I'd been angry. I went to bed angry the night before. The cat made me angry that morning, and as I lay down, the dream I'd been having when I was awakened entered my mind, and it occured to me how absurd and helter-skelter it was, due to my state of mind.
Then from out of nowhere, calm washed over me. A moment of clarity. First I pictured myself running around doing all the meaningless things I do all day, and swirling them all around my baby boy. Then in contrast, it all washed away, and calm was left. I was with my baby teaching him the most important things. Gone were the voices screaming in my head, instead was calm and truth, so strong that no other influences could overpower it.
How can I escape the insanity that rules my world, so that peace can take over? Jesus. Um, yeah...but, Jesus isn't on TV, Jesus isn't in my home, Jesus isn't at the park, Jesus isn't at the grocery store. Those are the things that occupy my mind & my time. I guess I ought to change all that.
Because in my little moment of clarity I pictured Jesus. And it was truth and calm. So simple.