Thoughts, thoughts, more thoughts...

the only things i have left in my mind are just thoughts, thoughts, and more thoughts. never can be erased. never can be denied. they are just thoughts. thoughts left in my mind. i feel like i'm a failure. drowning. yes, i'm just drowning. drowning in my thoughts. one of the main things that keeps me going is my faith in GOD. no doubts. without GOD i would be broken. broken to the point of not being able to fill the hole that i've dug myself into. never. never. never. i still wish i could get in contact with my mentor. i need to talk to someone. i tried talking to GOD, but he's not answering right now. i think he's upset with me. so GOD, if you can hear me, i'm sorry...