My computer hates me
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My computer died, although to be more technical I think it was the hard disk the operating system lived on. I'm reasonable sure that the other hard drive is fine, and that's where most of the data was, so it's not a big loss in that regard. But no operating system means no booting. Havn't turned it on yet, since I was woken up by odd clicking noises that I think were coming from the hard drive, I decided to let it have the day off. The power switch wouldn't turn it off, I had to unplug it. That it died is no surprise to me, it was about due, and for that matter the computer I'm typing this on is as well.
So what to do to fix it? Well if it is just the hard drive, that can be easily fixed, and for relativly cheaply as well. Be a bit of a pain to reinstall windows and all, but I was planning on doing that in the relative near future anyways. More importantly, the rest of the computer is getting on in age as well. The fan has been slowly getting louder and rattlier, and the cd drive stopped working sometime during the summer (not that I use the cd drive, but that's another story). If I was to replace the hard drive it would be a stalling action, something else would go bad before too long I'm sure. So I need to get a new computer all together. Which is going to be a problem, I can't justify the expense.
Perhaps I'm too frugal, but without an income I am very careful with spending money. I can justify a hard drive, on sale I can probably find a decent one for 40 dollars or so. But I doubt I can find a new computer for under a thousand, which I can't justify spending now. And since I expect this computer to die as well, shouldn't be too long before I lose my internet connection. Or maybe I'm being too pessimistic? This all could be the perfect opportunity/motivation for me to stop being a lazy bum and get out and do something with my life.
On a related issue, no computer means no instant messenger. So for those of you that talk to me through that, I won't be on until I get things straightened out, if I ever do that. No more send me messages anytime because I'm always around
And harder to read/post on joeuser too
So that's the bad news part, now the sort of good news but really just ponderings on stuff. For a while I've been thinking over a variety of things, and thanks to a strange little article in the paper I think they are coming together. Not that I'll be able to do anything with my thoughts, but that's besides the point.
The article was about how there are now men that look for a wealthy woman to marry, the opposite of in the past where some women would look for wealthy men. Gold diggers. While I wouldn't exactly like to marry for money, it helped put some things in perspective. I am currently unemployed, and I don't think I would do well at most jobs (not saying I'm unemployable, but that's not far off). But I do like to help people, at least people that appreciate being helped (is no fun to help someone that is upset at being helped).
A while back little whip/emperor ice cream (not sure which of them it was) said I was a slave (although they used a few more words, that was the idea). I gave that some thought and I feel that it is a mostly accurate assessment. Or put better, I would like to be a servant, and would gladly be a slave for the right person (to some extent I already am, more on that below). Not to say I am into pain and whatnot (mentioned due to context of little whip/emperor ice cream), although I generally think pain is a good thing. Pain means your alive and your in the middle of a potential learning experience, both good things. The pain itself is unpleasant, but if you can learn from it then it can be worthwhile.
I could see myself living somewhere and taking care of someones house/meals/clothes/kids/whatnot. Which ties back into the gold digging idea in that I could see me living with someone that was wealthy and doing the job of their maid/servant/whatever. But since I'm a picky person I wouldn't do this for just anyone, they would have to appreciate my help, and see to my needs even as I was seeing to theirs. What would that entail? I'm sort of picturing something along the lines of they go to work and while they are out I do other stuff. Clean the house, get groceries, wash the clothes, have dinner ready when they get home, and so on. And for doing all that I would have a place to stay and someone that cares for me, although I'm not exactly sure how they would express that.
Shift in thoughts a bit: SWIWNN has been working alot, at least from what I can tell using my evil discrete survelance methods. What is alot? From what I can tell the average day she's at work by 8am and doesn't leave until the following 8am, sometimes later. As well as working more weekends then not. Now it's entirely possible that since the last time we talked to each other things have changed, she could be married with three kids by now. But from what I can deduce (my stalking skills are limited since I won't let myself actually leave the house to find out what she is doing) she is living alone and working alot. Perhaps she likes the work and it's what she wants from life, I know she enjoyed it when we were talking. But all the same, I would gladly do anything to help her. Which is what I meant by being her slave to some extent. Right now, if she were to call me (which I know she won't) and tell me she wants me to go to her home and clean it spotless, have dinner done by some time, and leave before she gets home so she wouldn't even have to see me, I would be on my way to do that for her, gladly. And that has nothing to do with valentine's day.
Today being valentine's day just means being away from her hurts a bit more then most other days and I consider giving her a present of some sort even if she wouldn't want it, just so that she knows I still love her. But in the end I'll decide the same thing I did for her birthday last month, and christmas the month before: from what she has said and done what she wants the most from me is to be left alone, so ensuring that our paths have not crossed for another day is what I give her. My birthday (which is next month) is actually the hardest. All the other holidays the question ends up being what would she most want and how can I give it to her, which leads to doing nothing. On my birthday I want to be with her, and sometimes I almost convince myself that it would be ok to go and visit her even though she wouldn't want me to because it's my birthday and letting me visit could be her present to me. But I can't do that. If we were still talking I could ask, but we arn't and I can't just barge in on her like that.
So to summarize everything here: Computer died, might not get fixed, no instant messaging, much less joeuser time, I love her and would gladly do anything for her, so I sit in my corner doing nothing. Wow, did I take some apparently random and unrelated topics and stick them together or what
Now do I put this under personal computing or personal relationships...
My computer died, although to be more technical I think it was the hard disk the operating system lived on. I'm reasonable sure that the other hard drive is fine, and that's where most of the data was, so it's not a big loss in that regard. But no operating system means no booting. Havn't turned it on yet, since I was woken up by odd clicking noises that I think were coming from the hard drive, I decided to let it have the day off. The power switch wouldn't turn it off, I had to unplug it. That it died is no surprise to me, it was about due, and for that matter the computer I'm typing this on is as well.
So what to do to fix it? Well if it is just the hard drive, that can be easily fixed, and for relativly cheaply as well. Be a bit of a pain to reinstall windows and all, but I was planning on doing that in the relative near future anyways. More importantly, the rest of the computer is getting on in age as well. The fan has been slowly getting louder and rattlier, and the cd drive stopped working sometime during the summer (not that I use the cd drive, but that's another story). If I was to replace the hard drive it would be a stalling action, something else would go bad before too long I'm sure. So I need to get a new computer all together. Which is going to be a problem, I can't justify the expense.
Perhaps I'm too frugal, but without an income I am very careful with spending money. I can justify a hard drive, on sale I can probably find a decent one for 40 dollars or so. But I doubt I can find a new computer for under a thousand, which I can't justify spending now. And since I expect this computer to die as well, shouldn't be too long before I lose my internet connection. Or maybe I'm being too pessimistic? This all could be the perfect opportunity/motivation for me to stop being a lazy bum and get out and do something with my life.
On a related issue, no computer means no instant messenger. So for those of you that talk to me through that, I won't be on until I get things straightened out, if I ever do that. No more send me messages anytime because I'm always around
And harder to read/post on joeuser too So that's the bad news part, now the sort of good news but really just ponderings on stuff. For a while I've been thinking over a variety of things, and thanks to a strange little article in the paper I think they are coming together. Not that I'll be able to do anything with my thoughts, but that's besides the point.
The article was about how there are now men that look for a wealthy woman to marry, the opposite of in the past where some women would look for wealthy men. Gold diggers. While I wouldn't exactly like to marry for money, it helped put some things in perspective. I am currently unemployed, and I don't think I would do well at most jobs (not saying I'm unemployable, but that's not far off). But I do like to help people, at least people that appreciate being helped (is no fun to help someone that is upset at being helped).
A while back little whip/emperor ice cream (not sure which of them it was) said I was a slave (although they used a few more words, that was the idea). I gave that some thought and I feel that it is a mostly accurate assessment. Or put better, I would like to be a servant, and would gladly be a slave for the right person (to some extent I already am, more on that below). Not to say I am into pain and whatnot (mentioned due to context of little whip/emperor ice cream), although I generally think pain is a good thing. Pain means your alive and your in the middle of a potential learning experience, both good things. The pain itself is unpleasant, but if you can learn from it then it can be worthwhile.
I could see myself living somewhere and taking care of someones house/meals/clothes/kids/whatnot. Which ties back into the gold digging idea in that I could see me living with someone that was wealthy and doing the job of their maid/servant/whatever. But since I'm a picky person I wouldn't do this for just anyone, they would have to appreciate my help, and see to my needs even as I was seeing to theirs. What would that entail? I'm sort of picturing something along the lines of they go to work and while they are out I do other stuff. Clean the house, get groceries, wash the clothes, have dinner ready when they get home, and so on. And for doing all that I would have a place to stay and someone that cares for me, although I'm not exactly sure how they would express that.
Shift in thoughts a bit: SWIWNN has been working alot, at least from what I can tell using my evil discrete survelance methods. What is alot? From what I can tell the average day she's at work by 8am and doesn't leave until the following 8am, sometimes later. As well as working more weekends then not. Now it's entirely possible that since the last time we talked to each other things have changed, she could be married with three kids by now. But from what I can deduce (my stalking skills are limited since I won't let myself actually leave the house to find out what she is doing) she is living alone and working alot. Perhaps she likes the work and it's what she wants from life, I know she enjoyed it when we were talking. But all the same, I would gladly do anything to help her. Which is what I meant by being her slave to some extent. Right now, if she were to call me (which I know she won't) and tell me she wants me to go to her home and clean it spotless, have dinner done by some time, and leave before she gets home so she wouldn't even have to see me, I would be on my way to do that for her, gladly. And that has nothing to do with valentine's day.
Today being valentine's day just means being away from her hurts a bit more then most other days and I consider giving her a present of some sort even if she wouldn't want it, just so that she knows I still love her. But in the end I'll decide the same thing I did for her birthday last month, and christmas the month before: from what she has said and done what she wants the most from me is to be left alone, so ensuring that our paths have not crossed for another day is what I give her. My birthday (which is next month) is actually the hardest. All the other holidays the question ends up being what would she most want and how can I give it to her, which leads to doing nothing. On my birthday I want to be with her, and sometimes I almost convince myself that it would be ok to go and visit her even though she wouldn't want me to because it's my birthday and letting me visit could be her present to me. But I can't do that. If we were still talking I could ask, but we arn't and I can't just barge in on her like that.
So to summarize everything here: Computer died, might not get fixed, no instant messaging, much less joeuser time, I love her and would gladly do anything for her, so I sit in my corner doing nothing. Wow, did I take some apparently random and unrelated topics and stick them together or what
Now do I put this under personal computing or personal relationships...
