RATS

Rambling About Things and Such

       I thought my last ramble turned out moderatly well, so I'm going to do the rambling thing again tonight. Read and enjoy or not, your time your choice.
       I had a roommate when I went to college (RIT, 1996-7). I can't remember his name, but that wasn't important (I think it might have been Mike, but I'm far from certain). What was important is some of the things he said (of which I'm only going to mention one now). We were both computer science majors (well I was, on second thought he might have been computer engineering), so we both took some of the same classes and had lots of programming assignments. Well One day he said that he should write a danny-bot, implying that everything I said and did was predictable enough to make the task doable. While I do disagree with the idea that I (or any human) is simple enough to produce the sort of immitation he was talking about, he did have a very important point (even if he didn't realize it, he was a bit dumb at times).
       I do not act, I react. My reactions may vary even with the same stimulous, but I rarely initiate the action. But react, that I do all the time, to all sorts of things. Take blogging for example. I generally find it easier and more entertaining to reply to others blogs. Whereas writing my own, well I have a tendency to forget what I write as soon as I finish it (dump buffer, move to next task). Is why I know I'm going to repeat myself sooner or later, I hope no one minds too much when I do. But that's besides the point.
       The point is that I spend my life waiting for x so I can go to n (where n is whatever my reaction to x ends up being). Is why I doubt I'll leave this house until my parents cause a scene that leads me to walk out (if big ugly scene, then pick up bag and walk away). Is part of why I think there is much to EmperorofIceCream's statement that I am a "natural sexual slave" (not saying I agree completly, but I think there is much truth to the idea). Is why I post many of the comments I do on JoeUser (if person makes funny. laugh. if person needs help, help. if person writes article, read. etc...). If x, then n (silly roommate wasn't that far off), shift task.
       I've mentioned a woman I love (repeatedly, if your reading this and you havn't noticed, well color me surprised) and I fully intend to write more about her and me and all that happened in that whole convoluted story. But before I can do so I need a name to call her. I will not be using her name (mostly to protect her, but also because some things about her are not mine to share), so I need to come up with something to call her. As you are probably aware (if your not read my blog more closely ) I like Silly Acronyms. So a fitting acronym would be a good way to refer to her. WILMA. Woman I Love More than Anything. For now that's what I'm going with (although I might change it later). It's a good acronym because a) it's a girls name b) it's not her name (or even close) and c) it's a silly acronym. So look for more WILMA stories in the future (whenever I get around to writting about them).
       A while back (11/15 to be more precise) I tried (and failed) to find a JoeUser FAQ type thing. After I failed I went on and posted a few questions of my own. Since then I've read (and in some cases answered) questions from other people. So I'm thinking I'm going to take my article and edit it all over the place (which will probably annoy someone, but it's my blog so ) and create an unoffical faq. I'm planning to look around at questions other people have asked, stick them all together, and find answers for them as well. When possible I will point towards whoever answered the question (seems like the honorable thing to do). Of course, since I'm planning on doing this, Draginol should release an offical faq about five minutes before I post my unofficial one
       And now that I've produced a page or so of fluff, time for the important stuff that doesn't get said. I really want a cuddle tonight. Sometime this afternoon I started feeling a bit down (no idea why, not that that is terrible important, as the Askani say "the why of the situation is secondary to the situation itself", or some such nonsense). After a little thought I realized I really wanted to hold someone, to cuddle with them. Course, I don't have anyone that could fit that bill at this point, so instead I took a nap. And when I woke up I felt the same (perhaps even a bit worse), so I decided to write.
       It's a blah lonely feeling. I want the pressure of another body (prefferable one I love, but I'll admit that I get less and less picky as time goes by) next to me. In the past when I've felt like this I've thought about finding a prostitute and hiring them for a cuddle. Not that I would mind you (not to say there is anything wrong with prostitutes), but the idea has been there all the same. I want WILMA back...
       And for those of you that have expressed the desire that I find someone, I thank you and appreciate the thought.
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Hey there Danny what is up? I have read a few of you blogs and I was wondering how religious are you now? I do recall seeing something about a pastor in one of you posts. Does your religion help you at all? I don’t want to turn this into some kind of religion talk so I will leave it there. I know how you feel while I have a lady friend now I hadn’t had one for a long time and even though I had people to be with, even girls to be with. All I really wanted was someone to care for me. All of the friends in the world and all of the huges and smiles and you know...stuff, never seemed to help. I wanted a person to care about me and not in the way that my Mom and Dad care about me. I haven’t had enough life experience to give any kind of advice to you ( I am sorry) but I hope that my being able to relate helps you feel less alone. Take it easy man.
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A Danny-bot? Hmmmm, interesting concept but even if you only react, I think I prefer the human version. I understand completely about the answer vs write issue also.
Hang in there and You will find a WILMA.
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allenstafford: I think my religion helps, and I consider myself moderatly religous. Mind you, my church would probably consider me a heathen I can relate to the wanting someone to take care of you, but I also want to take care of them. Thanks for the thought.
SSG Geezer: I already have a WILMA, but I guess I'll have to find another one. And at the risk of sounding stupid (especially since I wrote what your commenting on), but I don't understand the answer vs write issue you mentioned Scratch that, I figured out what you meant about what I meant.
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Danny, I look forward to WILMA installments. I like getting to know more about what makes you....well, you.

A Danny-bot would most certainly not cut it. You do act sometimes....for example you did write this article without prompting...I think...anyway, a danny-bot just would not be the same.

Even when someone has someone else, it can still be lonely at times. We sometimes just want someone to cuddle, too. I was pretty depressed today, also. Weird. Most be something in the moon

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iamheather: I had prompting for this article. Not direct someone asking me to write it, more indirect reaction to my feelings and whatnot. And I've noticed some depressed people today too, could be the moon, but whatever it is it's effecting a bunch of people.
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I want WILMA back...


Danny...If you are anything in real life like you are on this site you will find THE Wilma of your dreams. THIS I am sure of...and don't forget to invite gramps to the wedding
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BTW....like the new picture!
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Manopeace: I think the only real difference between me on here and me in real life is that I'm much more likely to speak up here. In real life I tend to be quiet until I know someone well enough to talk to them.
iamheather: Glad you like it, I took that picture this morning, so it's the most recent picture of me anywhere
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I tend to be quiet until I know someone well enough to talk to them.


You got a Jewish granpa now, an Israeli yet.... We are known for our mouthiness and 'CHUTSPAH' (nerve)... so start acting like one