a love affair

years and days i courted death
though it never had time for me

times it flirted
hot sweet breath
quiet
next to my ear

singing a song that wasn't in tune
not what i'd thought at all

i thought of peace
escape from worries
doubts
and
lonely days

but death had little care for me
and wanted to take me

away

away from the possible
to be saved by hope
on some day far from here

my heart beat hard to feel it close
not what i'd thought at all
almost as if i wanted to live
but that seemed unlikely in truth

so between two places
of fear
and fear
i continued to live
in limbo

waiting

for nothing.

expecting

nothing.

hoping

for some thing.