Why?

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Why am I here? Why do I come here over and over again even when I feel the chips are down and nobody cares? Because, deep down…I know there are those that DO care and DO watch and read and listen and show they DO care.

There are nights when all I do is try to give comments on good work and rate skins because I know its a scarcity amongst a busy and thriving community such as my beloved WC (please don’t get the violins out, I think PLENTY of folks do just that too). I guess I really want to contribute more to this site as I know that one or two bad spokes doesn’t keep the wheel from rolling and I’d like to be a good spoke to strengthen WC rather than be a broken down spoke to weaken it. Sure, I’ve been rusty and even quite squeaky at times but I’ve been thoroughly oiled by the powers that be and I hope I can be a strong asset and not a weakness… and let’s face it…WC needs a little more of the soft side once in a blue moon. Follow me?

Never mind, I can't even follow me!

Okay, okay, okay…I’m not always so soft…and I’m usually outspoken but I try and speak from my heart…

Hence…my New Year’s Resolution:

Stop wearing heart on sleeve.

Nah, it will never happen…I even had my clothes tailor made for my heart on my sleeve…it’s too late…I’m a hopeless case…Oh lamentations!

Side note: I think goodmorphing needs to tell her sis to stick her AOL CD where the sun don't...

GM:If I was your sis I'd knit you a homemade scarf if I couldn't afford you something...

/me wishes she was GM's sis cuz she'd shower her with hugs and love and homemade goodies!

Oops. I got off on a tangent.

Maybe I should write a story and see how much of a thread I can take up?

*kidding*

I must go to bed. I'm sleepy but I want to end this silly thread with one thought:


I love you so much, whoever you are
When I look up to the heavens
we see the same star
And that star shines like diamonds
That glints in our eyes
Like the same moon that glistens
As the beams in our skies.


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Reply #1 from WinCustomize Forums Top
dang... that's allot of stuff to read.

maybe its because I am tired but, what exactly is going on here?
Reply #2 from WinCustomize Forums Top
It is a lot to read...Sorry. You have to know me pretty well to even get HALF of what I wrote...the rest looks like chicken scratch.

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Reply #3 from WinCustomize Forums Top
HEH... Hi AngEla. "GM:If I was your sis I'd knit you a homemade scarf if I couldn't afford you something... /me thinks that's very sweet! Thank you! The ironic thing behind her gift was that I just waged a huge battle (on her behalf, but she doesn't know it) and got her a 20K lump sum disability settlement plus $900/month. Affording isn't the problem here....

AngEla_27 wishes she was GM's sis cuz she'd shower her with hugs and love and homemade goodies! /me knows that is the greatest gift of all. Thanks for the thoughts.

You, now, should be happy. No worries. Concentrate on yourself and your wellness. You are doing fine here, there is hardness and there is softness. There is activity and there is silence. Thus is life. Sometimes it is good to just appreciate the flux and the flow.

/me admits it was a little silly to be upset about getting an AOL CD for Christmas... but my hopes and expectations leak out around the edges sometimes. That was what I got for hinting for a DVD player for so long.

Really, though, sis is just confused. It is not her fault.
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/me hugs GM because of her great big, generous heart...(((HUG)))

You are such a gem and a treasure...you blessed fellow child of life's abundant grace...thank you My heart overflows with love for you...you make me smile and chuckle and I bet you do that for many others too.

Oops...got too mushy. Ah heck...whatevva!

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Reply #5 from WinCustomize Forums Top
AngEla? Are you OK? Sometimes when you are going through a lot, like you are with the chemotherapy and all, your thoughts and feelings can be all over the place (especially if you are afraid). I wish I could just tell you that things are all ok and all, but I just don't know the situation. But it's OK to just hang out now, you know. Don't worry too much about stuff. Rent some funny videos and laugh at them... laughing has definate healing properties. Rely some on faith, even faith in us. We understand and are here. Stay around people if you can, cuddles and tickles are nice. And remember that even if you FEEL alone, you are not. You have friends here, even if we are not always available when you are.
Reply #6 from WinCustomize Forums Top
TY, GM Guess -maybe I was overspeaking myself.

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Reply #7 from WinCustomize Forums Top
Or maybe I was.... HEH.. it has been a long day, a long season. I was just hoping you were doing OK. Sorry if I misunderstood.
Reply #8 from WinCustomize Forums Top
Sigh... I have to go work out some HTML (actually, I have to try to understand a JAVA problem), you be careful, OK? Goodnight.
Reply #9 from WinCustomize Forums Top
I wish I could say it was that simple...

But sometimes I misunderstand myself.

I'll back into my shell and try not to make a nuisance of myself. ( I said TRY).

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Reply #10 from WinCustomize Forums Top
You are not a nuisance, really. People are just people, they do what they do. If you can understand that, and include yourself as a person among the people, then things just kind of flow along. No need to back into a shell or anything... /me thinks that as long as people are out there expressing and feeling and reaching out, then no matter if you understand or not, life has a way of working stuff out.