I have a nasty cold (trust me its not pretty), but I cant stay in today to recover. Too many things/obligations to attend to [e digicons]:S[/e]
Oh well, it could be worse. At least my computer runs fine [e digicons]
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So, I figured, Xer07 is on the Chatroom, only when he has real life issues or seeking advice. I wonder, would you say hello to us here in the Chatroom, if your life was perfect? I think not. Then again, if MY life was perfect, I wouldnt be here, probably [e digicons]
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@Xer07: I'm gonna say something I've been meaning to ask you for a long time, and then I am gonna proceed in giving you advice:
Each time you tell us about your RL issues here, and I respond in giving you advice and/or my opinion on your personal matters, do I actually help you in any way? Or do I waste my time?
Tell me, so that I know not to waste both yours and my time (no offense).
Ok here it goes:
Event: Hannah continues to flirt with me, and my friend Grant has relationship issues
Result: I start to consider myself lucky, maybe even gifted.
I thought you didnt care too much about Grant. I must be mistaken.
Event: My 16th Birthday on the 28th.
Result: Nothing notable
Sweet Sixteen!! [e digicons]
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Event: Halloween Night
Result: Got closer to Liz and Mish, but had more communication issues at home.
Got closer to your FRIEND Liz? What does that have to do with Mish? Come on, your GF should be more important than your friend [e digicons][/e]
Event: Grant's relationship issues worsen, Hannah starts to become depressed
Result: I start to get depressed myself *See music below for an idea of how emo I've reverted/become*
People are being called "emo", because they call themselves "emo". Truth is, that there is no such thing. It is another form of racism in this world. Dont let me get started on this one. Well, if you cant help Grant in any way, why do you worry so much?
Event: Hannah gets a boyfriend on top of her girlfriend
Result: Less flirting with me, she seems more depressed
Wait what?? [e digicons]
O[/e] You didnt mention that Hannah has a GF. And if she has a GF and a BF, then why the hell does she continue flirting with you?
Event: Hannah's sexuality is questioned (She claimed to be a lesbian, but now she has a bf) by me and Mish, she gets defensive. She also tells me and Mish that she doesn't care for either of her two partners, she's merely using them to pass the time.
Result: Hannah and I become still more depressed, I attempt to find out the cause of her depression and alleviate it.
Event: That sounds pretty evil of her (Hannah), to say the least. That girl has some serious issues.
Result: It seems like there's a connection between your depression, and Hannah's. As if you are affected by the happiness/sadness of the people around you. You CANT fix the whole damn world Xer07. Wake up, not everyone can be happy. Accept it. Oh and, watch the movie "The Butterfly Effect". Its meaning is invaluable.
Event: My insomnia returns.
Result: I'm on here and playing RPG's more, I also run on adrenaline during the later hours of the school day
Event: Of course it does. Its psychological.
Result: You mean, taking adrenaline pills and stuff?? .....why? [e digicons]o_O[/e]
Event: Me and Mishayla exchange our first "I love you's"
Result: A ray of sunshine penetrating the cloud that hangs over me.
I think that should be enough to make you happy. Your relationship with Mish is getting better and better, and if neither of you screw up, then you might end up growing old together. But no. Xere07 is a Superhero (rhymes FTW [e digicons]:grin:[/e] ), and he NEEDS to fix the whole world. Good luck with that.
Event: Hannah tells me how badly she was hurt by Mishayla breaking up with her, that the two proclaimed their love for one another, and that they even told one another they'd be getting married together (Their plan was to get married, save money, then move to Sweden where the Government provides almost everything with their cradle to the grave system)
Result: Guilt, sympathy, and curiosity as to why she'd tell this to me.
It almost seems like an attempt to scare and/or warn you. If she IS trying to scare you, that would be very mean of her. But maybe its just a way of saying: "Look how badly I've been hurt. I need you to understand me. I'm opening up."
I dunno, its hard to tell [e digicons][/e]
Event: Hannah tells me she contemplates suicide
Result: About 2 1/2 hours of me and her going back and forth about why, and why not. I won, as exhausting and depressing at it was, by telling her that she hasn't yet begun to live her life, and that High School will be nothing like the real world, so at least give the world a chance before you give it all away. I also conclude that Hannah trusts nobody but me, and cares for nobody but me and 2 other people (I told her that suicide would leave behind pain in the people who cared for her. She scoffed and said 3 people, that's all?).
Event: Thats just....not good. She needs to see an expert on that matter (psychologist, psychiatrist, anyone), not kidding.
Result: It was nice of you to convince her otherwise, but these thoughts dont temp to get out of one's mind easily. She'll think about suicide again, I can tell you that. Dont let your guard down, be alert. Oh and, if you could also convince her to see an expert, that would be great.
Btw, High School is exactly like the real world. The only difference is, that when you are done with High School, College, and all that, YOU are different, not the world. You're older, which means you're more mature, grown up, and usually calmer and collected. Actually, I'd say that High School is a little better than the real world. The real world is worse.
Event: Mishayla is considering taking me away this weekend for the movies and maybe dinner to celebrate my birthday since Halloween weekend was packed.
Prediction: I'll have to pass on it somehow, at least the dinner part, my depression has killed my appetite completely and I don't want to worry her.
Dont let all these things get you down, and out of the mood. Just pay more attention to YOUR life, your issues (if you have any), and your relationship with Mish. Yes, I am telling you to try to be a little selfish, again[e digicons]:typo:[/e]
Get your spirit up, and be glad with what you have. Dont pass on it, go out with your GF (especially considering that she does all this for you, since you are celebrating your B-day), be happy, have fun. Isnt tickling one another so fun? [e digicons][/e] Do that. Btw, it isnt very wise to have secrets from her (Mish), but whatever. I see your point though.
Rise Against is pretty awesome, IMO [e digicons][/e]
"Human beings are a disease, and we are the cure"
