What would you do?

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I dont know why but i am in a dark mood today.

I was wondering what i would do if this was my very last day on earth. If i knew that tomorrow i would leave the ones i love.

Mmmmh, tricky isnt it?

If it was a working day i'd take the day off, wtf, i'm dying tomorrow. I'd buy with my savings an airticket for my boyfriend and myself to go see my parents and my brother in New Caledonia. I would tell them how much i love them and how much i'd miss them. I think i'd want to drink champagne & wine till the morning lights. But then again if i knew that tomorrow i die, i'd like to savour each and every second i have left and remember everything i do.

I would say a little prayer to God. 'Can you receive me tomorrow please?'

I would bathe in the warm sea one last time, call my best friend in France, and all my other friends that deserve a little hello before i pass away.

I would hug and cuddle and kiss the ones i love, because i wouldnt be able to feel them again for a longtime after i breathe my last breath.

But most of all i think i'd cry before i die. Because i dont wanna leave them all behind.

And you? What would you do?
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Reply #1 from JoeUser Forums Top
I was in a dark mood today, as well, and I don't know why, either. Right now, the evening drags along, but the moment when I can hit the hay draws near. Bedtime for me, sometimes, is a moment of promise - a promise that tomorrow will be a better day.

It is to your good credit that you can look at your life from the perspective of "what if this were my last day...? The greatest value in a self-examination of this sort is in the appreciation it can give you for yet another day of life. Use it for that, then turn away from the dark thoughts, and live. Rejoice in your life, and always remember that now is the time for the living.
Reply #2 from JoeUser Forums Top
Thank you Rod Brocks. It sometimes hits me like that. A dark mood, that brings dark thoughts. Maybe i am missing something in my life. What would you do if this was your very last day on earth?
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Reply #3 from JoeUser Forums Top
Its funny how often this thought occurs to me, whether I'm in a dark mood or not. I consider myself a generally happy, balanced person so sometimes these thoughts can be particularly off-putting, but these days I try to recognise them for what they are.

I don't know if you've read anything about Buddhism but the philosophy makes a big deal about impermanence. Everything is impermanent and if one lives life knowing this, knowing one could die at any moment, then wouldn't it be better to go out with a smile on one's face. I like to think that wondering about my own demise is a call to appreciate all those who are special to me and to let them know.

To answer your question: I would spend my last day with my wife in the biggest, fanciest hotel suite I could book into. I would call all my friends and family, let them know how much they mean to me, invite those close to come and party, drink all the things I'm not supposed to, smoke all the things I'm not supposed to and eat all the things I'm not supposed to. Then, time permitting, I would make love to my wife one last time before putting my head down in her lap and letting her stroke my head as I drift away.
Reply #4 from JoeUser Forums Top
Awww, that was sooooo sweet dynamaso! *tear*

It's true this thing about impermanence. It's funny how we are so fragile and still take life for granted. I wish i could be more aware of the impermanence of things. How everything is a gift.

And how i never seem to appreciate life enough...

CARPE DIEM;)
Reply #5 from JoeUser Forums Top
I think I would smell my husband and kids all day! I adore the "smell" of my family.

I would say a little prayer to God. 'Can you receive me tomorrow please?'


Ditto!
Reply #6 from JoeUser Forums Top
Thanks Island Girl.

I think working in a major hospital over the last ten years or so has helped me change my perspective. Life is just too short to spend time being worrying about the small stuff. Everyday I work on maintaining my positive outlook, while being fully aware of my impermanence. Mind you, I'm not a Buddhist, but I do recognise elemental truths when I see them.
Reply #7 from JoeUser Forums Top
I'd definitely try n find some hot girl to have sex with... even if I had to pay for it.  hehehe
Reply #8 from JoeUser Forums Top
Oops, this is a double up.
Reply #9 from JoeUser Forums Top
Well, it takes more than a day to get to Adrian, and the flight to my other family is at least half a day, so it's just me and my boys. I'd put all our blankets and pillows on the floor, and we'd watch their favorite movies, and play their favorite games, and read their favorite books.

We'd order pizza and eat macaroni and cheese and lots and lots of candy and soda pop. We'd watch our videos of daddy and talk and snuggle, and I'd make sure they knew how much I love them and let them know how much promise I see in their tiny little lives. I'd call Adrian and let him know how very much and I love him and how much he means to me.

Then I'd call Lani and make sure she knew I was dying so she could feed the kids supper.
Reply #10 from JoeUser Forums Top
iamheather, it's true i have something about smells too. A perfume can remind me someone, a scent will bring whole scenes to my mind, a cooking smell will remind me of my mum, or whatever. It's weird, like i remember smells better than anything else!

dynamaso, so what do you do now? Are you a doctor?

imajinit: you naughty naughty boy... But then again what is the aim of life if not to procreate right?

Reply #11 from JoeUser Forums Top
Tex, you always bring a smile to my face somehow i was sure you'd mention a great time with your sons, they're so gorgeous!
Reply #12 from JoeUser Forums Top
No, I'm just an admin. assistant. But like anyone working in this sort of environment, I am reminded almost daily of how short life is...
Reply #13 from JoeUser Forums Top
dynamaso, oh i see, the hospital surely isnt an easy environment. I am too sensitive to work in a hospital, i think i'd be fainting or vomiting 24/7, even if i was workin in the administration part....
Reply #14 from JoeUser Forums Top
Island Gurl - you are so right. The most encouraging thing is to see daily examples of the selflessness of people, particularly of the nursing staff and volunteers, who are the first to be ridiculed should something go wrong but the last to be thanked when all goes well. It does my little heart good...
Reply #15 from JoeUser Forums Top
Moi, je prendrai une douche et me mettrai en odeur de sainteté pour la grande explication
Reply #16 from JoeUser Forums Top
Gar: toi alors! Et ça sent quoi une odeur de sainteté d'abord??
Reply #17 from JoeUser Forums Top
Dynamaso - It's a shame i know...