Love? yeah right!

Well it's been two weeks since I met Marcus.

We spent last Friday eating Yum Cha. I had a really good time with him. The next day he talks with me and tells me he must have gotten food poisoning and was feeling really sick. SO over this weekend I have been calling him to make sure he is ok and messaging him and stuff. I havent really heard much from him. I was really worried about him.

Anyhow this morning I called him and his mother answered the phone. SHe said he was asleep and was feeling sick still. So he obviously wasnt going to work. It's good he needs to get better. So I sent him an email to let him know I had been thinking about him and that I hoped he was ok, and that I was really concerned about him.

He emailed me back. In one instant he wiped the smile on my face that I had there for the past two weeks.

He tells me he is going to move interstate. That he isnt happy in Sydney and that a long distance relationship isnt going to work. So we should end the romantic part of our relationship now before we get too attached.

Well buddy too late. I am attached. I am feeling pain right now and everything that was reawakened inside me has been thrown out the window. Where was the option to come with you? Where was the discussion about what was happening? Did everything you said to me in the past two weeks mean nothing?

Umm right now Im pissed, I feel like drowning and dying. My heart feels like it is being shredded by lions.

I need to go cry.
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I know that there's no much I can say right now. I read your blogs all the time but never know how to comment so I'm in the strange position of feeling as though I know you far more than you know me. I hope I don't come over as too familiar.

A broken heart is the sign of a heart that's still open. A heart that's still working. There is nothing I can say that will explain his behaviour. Just know that the fact that you are hurting makes you human and this is what makes you special.

And you ARE special. He may not realise and that's probably the most pressing thing on your mind right now, but everyone here, everyone who reads you knows how wonderful you are.

Take care of you. You deserve such happiness.

Suz xxx
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Bless your heart, Phoenixboi. I'm so sorry.

And you ARE special. He may not realise and that's probably the most pressing thing on your mind right now, but everyone here, everyone who reads you knows how wonderful you are.

Take care of you. You deserve such happiness.


I second that.
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go with me on this one, even if its only partly true, it will make you feel better to say it!

MEN ARE DOGS!

I also have a frozen margarita and a cigarrette! (after that, you've lost me, thats the only ammo I have against such things)

oh WAIT....*hug*
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I also have a frozen margarita and a cigarrette!


Evil woman. I only have a glass of red and a cigarette. You win!

Not all men are dogs. Phoenix is a great man
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P, we already talked about this....i'm so sorry that you're hurt.  I wish I was closer...we'd have a cup of tea and a good cry and then go party our asses off....perfect 'getting over men' behaviour.


I know that it doesn't mean much right now, but I do love you....it's not the kind of love you've been looking for, but it's there nonetheless.  The kids love you, and D thinks you're alright (which is a close to any kind of emotion as you're going to get from him; he's a manly man and they don't show their emotions).


Keep your chin up, chicken. We're all here for you...

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Hey Floozie thankyou. Those words right now mean alot to me. I cant say much right now but thank you. *hug*
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Texas, Wuxiao... thanks..

all men are bastards... (does that mean i am too?) but you know when you really want to love someone and feel that love back it is hard to understand why it doesnt happen.

I guess life is like Yum Cha.

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I know that it doesn't mean much right now, but I do love you....it's not the kind of love you've been looking for, but it's there nonetheless. The kids love you, and D thinks you're alright (which is a close to any kind of emotion as you're going to get from him; he's a manly man and they don't show their emotions).


It means more than anything right now. Dharma .. it really does.
Ive gotta go to work soon. I dont want to face people. But I know it will be a good distraction.

Becoming a monk sounds really good right now.


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Ive gotta go to work soon. I dont want to face people. But I know it will be a good distraction.


Go!  Don't let Marcus' lack of character spoil the rest of your day!  Hold your head high, and press on with your life.....show him that he's not the be all and end all of your life!


Go to work, and do me proud!

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Becoming a monk sounds really good right now.


As Young MC said 'Don't hang yourself with a celibate rope'

Have the best day you can. Treat yourself for lunch, buy something little you have wanted for a while, and have lotsa drinks! We'll all be checking in on you xxx
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Go to work, and do me proud!


Im going... just be ready to get the handbag out Dharma.
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Have the best day you can. Treat yourself for lunch, buy something little you have wanted for a while, and have lotsa drinks! We'll all be checking in on you xxx


Thanks Floozie... ill be doin my best to make me better!.. His loss not mine hey! xo
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His loss not mine hey!


It's the mantra I live by, baby! Hugs to you xxx
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(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((phoenixboi))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
poor punkin
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Thanks Mano.. your hugs are always comforting.

Ive had a really interesting day today. A few realisations. Some more growth.

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I'm so sorry to hear this. Suz already summed it up properly. I'm sorry to see this so late, though. Take care and I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
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Not sure how to respond on the net to this, but you are a cool guy, and it's sad to see you hurt.
The pain will pass, as you know, even though it never feels like it will every time. I think moving would be a bit too much for someone you haven't been going out with that long, but I reckon you should suggest staying in contact with him.
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Take care and I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.


Thanks Chip!
The pain will pass, as you know, even though it never feels like it will every time


Hey Champas.. yeah it will pass..
I reckon you should suggest staying in contact with him.


since the last time i posted i got an email from him where he was a total jerk to me so I dont think I will stay in contact. it's best to end it and move on.

Thanks for the support guys!