YAY Christmas is over
And on to the New Year>>>>>>
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Mush you Huskies! Get on Hoss! And last, but not least, thank you , God that the holiday is past.
Every year, it seems, I try to come up with one good reason to "go home" for the holiday. And every year, I have one. How unfortunate that as soon as the screaming begins, I forget why I showed my face to begin with. It is inevitable that every visit home I will offend someone. Usually it's anyone within earshot. This year, there were more people involved.
Forget that the holiday is commercial, my family is stingy. lol. UNBELIEVABLE. And in the last 27 years it has yet to occur to them that I may have become an adult somwhere along the way. They are perfectly comfortable with ego-bruising as it were, until it happens to them. And I have long since ceased being a huge fan of being the victim in that story. Every decision I make is unacceptable and the whole famdamily feels the need to let me know. And since I only see them together once a year, they gang up on me. Whose life is it?
SOOOOOOOO this year I will do what I want without the guilt. They live some 700 miles from me, and really have no bearing on my life as it were. I only know that what they don't know won't hurt me. All my life I have been a very giving person, but only for the last 10 or so have I been honest. I know people who would rather not know me because of how in-your-face I can be, but I also knkow people who love be either because of or in spite of this characteristic.
For whatever reason, I can stand up for myself until I get "home". Well, this year, I stood up for myself. It didn't go well. Now I'm the asshole child. I am 27 years old, and you'd think that whether I wanted to go back to school would be my choice, but NOOOOOOOO! Huge guilt trips all around because I didn't do with my life what each and every person in my family would have. Does everyone's family act this way? Is every family this embarrassed by their children? At what point will what I do or have become be acceptable? Does what I think count?
From what I experienced over this fine Christmas Holiday the answers are: no, no, never, and no. BULLSHIT! That changes now. I'll keep you all posted on my progress into something more resembling a functioning member of society rather than a guilt-ridden, insecure teenager. A journey that should have begun years ago.....
What a wonderful year! It went far too quickly, yet not fast enough, and I am anxious to get on with the next fifty years of my life.
TTYL!
Every year, it seems, I try to come up with one good reason to "go home" for the holiday. And every year, I have one. How unfortunate that as soon as the screaming begins, I forget why I showed my face to begin with. It is inevitable that every visit home I will offend someone. Usually it's anyone within earshot. This year, there were more people involved.
Forget that the holiday is commercial, my family is stingy. lol. UNBELIEVABLE. And in the last 27 years it has yet to occur to them that I may have become an adult somwhere along the way. They are perfectly comfortable with ego-bruising as it were, until it happens to them. And I have long since ceased being a huge fan of being the victim in that story. Every decision I make is unacceptable and the whole famdamily feels the need to let me know. And since I only see them together once a year, they gang up on me. Whose life is it?
SOOOOOOOO this year I will do what I want without the guilt. They live some 700 miles from me, and really have no bearing on my life as it were. I only know that what they don't know won't hurt me. All my life I have been a very giving person, but only for the last 10 or so have I been honest. I know people who would rather not know me because of how in-your-face I can be, but I also knkow people who love be either because of or in spite of this characteristic.
For whatever reason, I can stand up for myself until I get "home". Well, this year, I stood up for myself. It didn't go well. Now I'm the asshole child. I am 27 years old, and you'd think that whether I wanted to go back to school would be my choice, but NOOOOOOOO! Huge guilt trips all around because I didn't do with my life what each and every person in my family would have. Does everyone's family act this way? Is every family this embarrassed by their children? At what point will what I do or have become be acceptable? Does what I think count?
From what I experienced over this fine Christmas Holiday the answers are: no, no, never, and no. BULLSHIT! That changes now. I'll keep you all posted on my progress into something more resembling a functioning member of society rather than a guilt-ridden, insecure teenager. A journey that should have begun years ago.....
What a wonderful year! It went far too quickly, yet not fast enough, and I am anxious to get on with the next fifty years of my life.
TTYL!