I'm still alive, somewhat. Not sure if that's a good thing or what. Right now life sucks for me. I have to pretend for the sake of my children but if were up to me, I'd be driving thru a screwed up neighborhood tonight and saying every insult I can come up with to anyone I see and maybe if I am lucky, one of them has enough aim to put me out of my misery only because I am too scared to do it myself. But I have kids to think of and these kinds of thought can only be related to a nightmare I may have had or a story I might be planning on writing.
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You live for your kids, and you live for you too. I've garnered that much from reading you. Writing is always good therapy. Prayerfully you'll find a solution to that situation soon.
I apologize for sounding so rotten on your article. I have been trying to be positive about things for about a year now and all I have gotten for my hard work is 1 step forward and 5 steps back so right now it seems easier to just take the 5 steps back from the start that way I am miserable just because I am 5 steps back rather than becase I am 5 steps back after moving forward.
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So sorry Charles. Just don't give up ok?! I know things are sucky right now and it doesn't seem as if we will get over this period, but we will! Believe, I understand your feelings. It can be pretty daunting when you're trying to make things better, and each time it seems in vain. It is not. You just keep pushing at that mountain, eventually you'll be able to go around it! Lay the burden down, it will be lifted! 
Actually my output has been paltry. Not even a lot of comments. I have been just too busy, but I try to pop in every day or 2.
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It happens! Good to see you around though!
It is wonderful to see a lot of posters. The best part is the different types of blogs. That's what makes JU interesting for me. You are a very good ring leader. I'll admit, right before the holidays I got beat, but hopefully, I will be back. It feels so good to write!
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It is and yeah for more writing! Me....ringleader.... 
FS, you are a really great woman! Thanks for all your positive energy.
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I blame my mom for that!lol! Miss you moms! Speaking of which I'm supposed to look for a poem I wrote for a dedication my sis is doing back in our home town....
It is always good to send out good vibes to all who can feel it. It sucks when life is depressing and all you do is sit and worry...I know, I've been there one too many times. I find that it gets much better, when you just give it all up to God and just live! Some people say, yeah, you can't live without money. True, to a point. As long as you can pay your home, buy food, the rest can be left for some other time. Even if the hole you're in is knee deep and growing. Though our needs are all met, even when they weren't, I usually find the inexpensive and free things to do to keep life interesting! Geech, sorry, I just preached all that! 