The Substance of Humanity
What basically made human more humane
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I couldn’t help it but confessed to my own misery in the tiny room I lived in,
If only I weren’t in the position I am now, so lonely with nobody I trust can be trusted to hear me whine, or talked about what my problems were,
How could this life be so mean to me? What have I done to deserve such a torturing in the turn of fate in my life?
Was it because of my mistake in the past or was it because the choices I made before?
Or was it just another scenario of tests God have for me to see what was made of me?
How can a mortal man like me take over so many things in life and still be expected to deliver everything successfully without any flaws in it?
Why must my sacrifices be the one that I loved so much or those I knew can never pull through without my help?
My heart just couldn’t let those kind of things happened and thus, I carry the whole weight on my own shoulder and walk this walk of needles on my own.
Am I doing these all to prove to myself, that I am somehow at a greater degree of mortal human than any others?
Or am I just doing it because I was plain dumb and overly positive about anything?
What has actually made me the way I am or how I did all the silly things I’ve done?
Am I aware that I could possibly heading myself straight down to the destruction in Hell?
Or whether I realized that the complex tangle I am mingling now will never set me free no matter what I do or how smart I think I am at solving problems?
The answer is probably simple, nothing fruitful can be achieve easily when we all start from zero, and of course we have to have faith and never give up on things easily.
I know all the things I’ve done are probably not acceptable to many others, but I have always believed in my conscience and the truth and I hope it will never betray me.
I am merely a mortal human and yes I do make mistakes which are irreversible,
And as some of them really were, they will never disappear unless I choose to be selfish and leave all the mistakes behind and think about my own happiness,
People just don’t understand that sometimes it takes a deeper thought on the things we always see on the surface to really understand the whole picture,
And I also strongly believed that there is always a God above who’s watching over us and will pat us on our back every time we fall, probably laughed or giggled at our own silliness, or gazed with awe at the extraordinary creative things we did in life.
He’s after all the creator of all the values we have and if He doesn’t have it, how would He knew how to create them?
But if indeed it will betray me once in the future, yeah fine, I will fall hard on the floor, bleeds a lot with bruises on the flesh, then, I will stand up again, brush off the stains, with more scars I can tell my soul about, more experiences I can carry with in my life while I’m still living, with a stronger determination, faith and wisdom to pull through tougher tasks or situation we all can never imagine and continue the journey with a Jack Daniel’s on my left hand and a Cartier Menthol on my right..
So…that’s what this life is all about, when the tide was not on our favor and the wind was somehow messing my hair while I am comfortably sitting and day dreaming on this sandy beach.
If only I weren’t in the position I am now, so lonely with nobody I trust can be trusted to hear me whine, or talked about what my problems were,
How could this life be so mean to me? What have I done to deserve such a torturing in the turn of fate in my life?
Was it because of my mistake in the past or was it because the choices I made before?
Or was it just another scenario of tests God have for me to see what was made of me?
How can a mortal man like me take over so many things in life and still be expected to deliver everything successfully without any flaws in it?
Why must my sacrifices be the one that I loved so much or those I knew can never pull through without my help?
My heart just couldn’t let those kind of things happened and thus, I carry the whole weight on my own shoulder and walk this walk of needles on my own.
Am I doing these all to prove to myself, that I am somehow at a greater degree of mortal human than any others?
Or am I just doing it because I was plain dumb and overly positive about anything?
What has actually made me the way I am or how I did all the silly things I’ve done?
Am I aware that I could possibly heading myself straight down to the destruction in Hell?
Or whether I realized that the complex tangle I am mingling now will never set me free no matter what I do or how smart I think I am at solving problems?
The answer is probably simple, nothing fruitful can be achieve easily when we all start from zero, and of course we have to have faith and never give up on things easily.
I know all the things I’ve done are probably not acceptable to many others, but I have always believed in my conscience and the truth and I hope it will never betray me.
I am merely a mortal human and yes I do make mistakes which are irreversible,
And as some of them really were, they will never disappear unless I choose to be selfish and leave all the mistakes behind and think about my own happiness,
People just don’t understand that sometimes it takes a deeper thought on the things we always see on the surface to really understand the whole picture,
And I also strongly believed that there is always a God above who’s watching over us and will pat us on our back every time we fall, probably laughed or giggled at our own silliness, or gazed with awe at the extraordinary creative things we did in life.
He’s after all the creator of all the values we have and if He doesn’t have it, how would He knew how to create them?
But if indeed it will betray me once in the future, yeah fine, I will fall hard on the floor, bleeds a lot with bruises on the flesh, then, I will stand up again, brush off the stains, with more scars I can tell my soul about, more experiences I can carry with in my life while I’m still living, with a stronger determination, faith and wisdom to pull through tougher tasks or situation we all can never imagine and continue the journey with a Jack Daniel’s on my left hand and a Cartier Menthol on my right..
So…that’s what this life is all about, when the tide was not on our favor and the wind was somehow messing my hair while I am comfortably sitting and day dreaming on this sandy beach.