I feel helpless....

from JoeUser Forums
I have no control over parts of my life right now. Since I'm currently living with a friend and his Girlfriend, and they've been extremely kind and caring about keeping me fed, giving me shelter and such I feel as if my life right now is in their hands.

They are currently screaming at each other. Something about her talking to her ex-boyfriend when she told my friend she wouldn't talk to him again a while back; the ex is also a big whackaloon from the impression I got the one time I had to meet him... opening the door to see him standing there, then yelling at me accusing me of going out with "his" girlfriend... ugh crazyness extreme...

So here they are fighting... and I keep thinking to myself... what happens if they decide to split up... since right now the apartment we're at is technically hers. She's not an evil person and gets along with me just fine.. but I'm also in the position that I'm the boyfriends friend, and since I'm not able to afford rent atm or even any minor living expense I'd be pushed out with him. No blame to her obviously because she's just doing what's best for herself. Bleh...

This is all hypothetical though... I have no real knowledge on what may come but I feel so helpless. If I don't have a job that' actually STARTS real soon and gets me money soon things aren't going to get any better and chances are will get a lot worse... I so HATE not having a job.. If I had even a minimum wage job I could afford a place to live out here... I can live on a diet of Ramen noodles and Mac and Cheese ..

I guess I just feel like I don't have much of a say atm on where my life goes... My friends been talking to me about heading back out East, back to Indiana... Basically atm if he decides to go, I have to go with him... I don't have the means to be able to stay if he does go....

I wish this boss would quit jacking around, and get his finances in order so I can start... I can feel better about things I'm sure if I have a source of Income... some means of providing for myself instead of feeling like a money sucking leech living off of others. I think tommorow I'm going to head over to the gas station across the street and talk to the manager and try to smooze my way into a job there... at least something... Hell I'll run a register or make BIg Mac's all day right now, I'm that desperate to have income...

Ok, I feel a bit better after typing that out... I'll now return back to my normal happy and optimistic self =)
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Reply #1 from JoeUser Forums Top
Sorry to hear that things aren't so rosy for you at the moment. There are some good things that you can find in your situation though
1) You obviously have an amazing friend if he is prepared to put you up and feed you
2) You are obviously a positive person as you are prepared to do whatever it takes to get yourself out of this hole.

So best of luck getting back on your feet - although I get the feeling you don't need it!

Suz xxx
Reply #2 from JoeUser Forums Top
Cheer up friend. They say, when god closer one door, he opens another. Keep trying, you will see light at the end of the tunnel !
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Reply #3 from JoeUser Forums Top
... Hell I'll run a register or make BIg Mac's all day right now, I'm that desperate to have income...


then why don't you? I am not being mean..I am just trying to let you see that you really need to stop living at your friend's girlfriend's place and start living your life Even if it means you gotta clean toilets..you will feel shitty until you have your shit in your control
Reply #4 from JoeUser Forums Top
Well at least I'm not the first to comment for once, things are looking up huh? You're just in a rut hunny, things will work themselves out. Things maybe tough at the moment but they will get better, just think when you start work, and get your own place, and sort stuff out. Things will be great then! You just need to go with the flow at the moment. Enjoy the freedom, you'll soon be tied down to a job, and working half, make the most of your time while you have it!
Reply #5 from JoeUser Forums Top

I'm sorry that things are so unstable for you right now.  I was in the same kind of situation a few months ago....and by that I mean that my life was no longer in my control, it was in the hands of others.


It will get better, trust me.


My husband's from Indiana, I'll be there at the end of the month.  After that I'll be close to St Louis.  Drop me a line if it looks like you;re heading back that way....my email address is on my blog page.

Reply #6 from JoeUser Forums Top
Hang in there!
Reply #7 from JoeUser Forums Top
Thanks for the replies all Mucho appreciated.