My Child hood.
About my family.
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I have these thoughts of when I was a kid that run through my head. And though I would never ever do what my mom did to me the remarks that were made at me. Unlike most people I know they dont understand why I have these aweful thoughts but know one ever has wished they were adopted and found out they were or was told by the mom and siblings that they were adopted and then found out it was just a bunch of lies. I use to believe I was adopted because I was told that at one point in my life. Just because I was different from my family and well there was only one person who could tell me that I was part of there Family and that was my Grandma Darlene. She was the best and kept me protected but when the truth of Abuse was brought out then there was another thing I had to worry about her. After my Grandma came out with the facts that My own mother was sexually and physically hurting me then she told the police and my grandfather and my dad. But with in a fews of this She was murdered by my grandfathers hand covered up by the police as a nervous break down in her sleep but the coroners report 10 years later shows they removed heart meds of my grandfathers from my grandmothers stomach. Just because she was trying to protect me. Also less then 6 months later my mom started her bullshit with me as well and so did my brother, If I did hold still and let them do what they wanted to me I would get beat with what ever was close to them at the time. I think the largest thing I ever got beat with was a wooden bat other then there fists. Oh and a lamp. Oh And I bet you are wondering where my loving father was while this was going on. Well lets put it this way not at home he had to much going on in his life to be home cause he had more then one job while all my mom did at the point until I was 12 which was right before my grandmas death. Then she started working at a nursing home as a dietary Aid and my dad well he was a fire fighter, city counsel men, Part of the lions club, A book keeper for three resturants and worked actually in only one at the time.
So As you can see he was never home. So my mom and brother had full rain many times I called Social service and talked to my school counsel was taken out of the home for a month or more at a time but placed back in the home after the evaluation. Ran a way many times. But still placed back in the home.
When I was 17 my mom was friends with this 34 year old guy who she set up for us to me he was a cripple. She told me to take him fishing well I did and I was Raped and threatened to date and marry him well I got away before marriage but I was beaten when I would not put out for sex. And one time I told him I was leaving and not returning And he took his Cane which was metal and he hit me in the crotch. The dr had to put stitches in and told me I would never be able to have kids. But when I met the right man who was bi like me and totally my soul mate then I married and had 1 baby girl Named Jade. And my immediate and only family now is another story.
But this is a lil bit about my childhood.
So As you can see he was never home. So my mom and brother had full rain many times I called Social service and talked to my school counsel was taken out of the home for a month or more at a time but placed back in the home after the evaluation. Ran a way many times. But still placed back in the home.
When I was 17 my mom was friends with this 34 year old guy who she set up for us to me he was a cripple. She told me to take him fishing well I did and I was Raped and threatened to date and marry him well I got away before marriage but I was beaten when I would not put out for sex. And one time I told him I was leaving and not returning And he took his Cane which was metal and he hit me in the crotch. The dr had to put stitches in and told me I would never be able to have kids. But when I met the right man who was bi like me and totally my soul mate then I married and had 1 baby girl Named Jade. And my immediate and only family now is another story.
But this is a lil bit about my childhood.