How old are you PJ? Looking at your blog I get the inpression you are an adult? I could be wrong, it may not have been your info I saw. Anyway, back to the subject.
No matter how old you are young, teen, adult, old etc, your mother never stops loving you, as a mother I know this from experience with my daughter. I also know this from my experience with my mother (god rest her soul)and all the hard times I gave her and the horror I put her through.
A mothers love never dies, it is enduring. Trust that love. Go and talk to your mother, you might be surprised.