I want to go BACK :'(

I got back from my little holiday on Monday night. It was so hard to come back. The only reason I really came back are my parents and my baby niece.

Glen’s wife kept saying I should pretend to my boss that I’m sick and stay a little longer. I really wish I was crazy enough to do that. But I’ve always been scared of getting in trouble whenever it has something to do with work.

I finally stayed at Darren’s house, because I couldn’t afford the accommodation elsewhere and it was too late to ask other friends, I didn’t want to seem rude to them by asking them at last minute if I could stay over at their house.

I thought it’d be awkward between us, but it was so easy being with him. Actually it was awkward for me at first because I was wondering if he was really happy to see me. But after a while I could see that he was.

I cant believe I am still so in love with him. This weekend was like a dream really. It felt as if we had never been apart, except for all the talking! Hehe! We had so much to tell each other, I came back and I was telling myself that I forgot to tell him about this and that… But it was so much fun, it’s been a while I haven’t laughed and smiled so much. I felt alive again.

Three days is really too short. I didn’t meet up with all the people I wanted to see. And the ones I actually saw, it wasn’t enough! If I had stayed for a week I could have gone for lunch and dinner with some. But I really wanted to spend most of the time with Darren, Glen and Bina.

It was very refreshing, mind soothing, relaxing and all!!

Now I’m back to hell, lol. No it’s not that bad. But I already miss Vila… The warmth of the place and of the people. I forgot how everybody (well most of the people) like to smile for no reason.

I was still in the smile mood when I got here, but I noticed that no one smiled back, *sniff*

It’s only a few months before I go back to Vanuatu. I cant wait for August… And this time I’ll stay for a whole two weeks, I just cant wait.


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*****VBS***

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May I ask why you left in first place?
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Aww thanks Trudy!!

Moderateman, because I was stupid, i should have never left. I did miss my parents and I wanted to be here for my little niece's birth. But now I want to go back home. I just wish my parents would come to. But if they do my Dad will lose the medical support he benefits here.

Dilemma.

I'll just take it easy. I'm going back there in three months for a longer holiday. So til then I just need to tighten my jaws and take it as it comes...............
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3 by island_gurl12
Thursday, May 18, 2006


Moderateman, because I was stupid, i should have never left. I did miss my parents and I wanted to be here for my little niece's birth. But now I want to go back home. I just wish my parents would come to. But if they do my Dad will lose the medical support he benefits here.


stupid? nope, juist went with emotions at the time.

If you want to go back then do so!

I can see why parents would want to stay there medical bennies are a must today.
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If you want to go back then do so!

I should huh??

can see why parents would want to stay there medical bennies are a must today.

Yup, totally, the medication my Dad takes for his heart is so expensive!!!! I just have to play at the casino and win the jackpot then we can live back home and dont care about money, *sigh*


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Looks like Modman has given you the same advice I was going to give. I say go with your heart and be where you are going to be most happy. Happy people do more good than any others.

I forgot how everybody (well most of the people) like to smile for no reason.

I was still in the smile mood when I got here, but I noticed that no one smiled back, *sniff*


Given your lovely smile, it is really sad to hear no one returned yours. I hope you have a wonderful weekend and find some who are willing to smile back. After all, it doesn't cost anything.
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Happy people do more good than any others.

That is so true!

Given your lovely smile, it is really sad to hear no one returned yours. I hope you have a wonderful weekend and find some who are willing to smile back. After all, it doesn't cost anything.

Yes it doesnt cost anything, but some people are too wrapped up in their own thoughts to notice a smile in the crowd.
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Sorry to hear that you are missing your former home....hope you get to visit again verrry soon!
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You have plenty of time to decide.  After your visit in August, decide then.  Your description of coming home and the smiles was what I saw when I landed in NY after spending 2 years in Germany.  Big Shock!  I was ready to get on the next plane and head back.
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Glad you had fun...and August isn't very far away.

Glad your back on JU!
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Hi Rose Yep soon and very soon I will go baack home!!!

Aaah DrGuy, you must know exactly how I feel right now, it's just a matter of time til I go back...

Yes Tova it was loads of fun!! And you're right August isnt far away, but time goes slow for some reason, lol!
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Aaah DrGuy, you must know exactly how I feel right now, it's just a matter of time til I go back...

Yes I do.  But I never went back.  Between you me and the fence post, that is one of my biggest regrets.  Dont take that as your next move.  Just wisdom of an old man.

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I suppose you could still go back on holidays hey?

Damn I want to go back so bad, some of my friends over there are looking for job oportunities for me, lol, how sweet is that?? I dont try myself because i'm still not sure that it would be a good idea. The one thing stopping me are my parents, they are my strength, I cant see mself moving back to Vila without them close...
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Hmmm...how'd I miss this one? Go with your heart Em, you won't regret it.

wish ya was movin' to Texas...