What i Fear
Demanding, ain't i?
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So, we are doing the wild thing. (Not the wild thing you are thinking about. Even wilder.) Our world is connected and intertwined.
Yet still my fears linger and cloud my thoughts. So i take them out and shake them loose and show them the light of day.
What are they that they are so transparent and ephemeral, and yet so pervasive and persuasive?
It isn't the direct fear of losing you. It is the fear that you won't want me in the morning or even now you want another...
That i will lose you because of your choice to go. Will you lose patience with me? Will you turn away from me?
Others...
Your desire for me doesn't burn the way it use to. It never will again. But that is life. And i could do more, should do more -
to be the most desirable woman for you. And you are learning your own strength. You are sheltered in my life, in the safety of my harbor.
And that sets you free to try things that previously were dreams but now wait for you in tomorrows afternoon...
And that which holds you so dear - my heart, pounding hollow in my chest - fears that your heart will find another and chose that path.
You are my destiny. I sensed you before i found you. I knew you were there, near. I could feel the pull and knew the answering echo of mutual hungers.
Ask P. He knows. I told my brother as we rode, more than once... He may remember, it is true.
You shelter me so totally and make my bed safe and warm. I never want to be parted from you. Yet it does happen. And even just sitting at home
there is separation. You on the laptop over there and me here. But also a warm camraderie and comfortable acceptance of each others everything.
Thank you for your arms. Thank you for your shoulders. Thank you for your hands.
My dreams are in your arms. My world is on your shoulders. My heart is in your hands.
I set you free on this path because your freedom is crucial to your power to choose. If you choose me when you are free, then you have truly chosen me...
You have already chosen me, but every breath brings a new choice, once decided it can be revoked... Demanding, ain't i?
Yet still my fears linger and cloud my thoughts. So i take them out and shake them loose and show them the light of day.
What are they that they are so transparent and ephemeral, and yet so pervasive and persuasive?
It isn't the direct fear of losing you. It is the fear that you won't want me in the morning or even now you want another...
That i will lose you because of your choice to go. Will you lose patience with me? Will you turn away from me?
Others...
Your desire for me doesn't burn the way it use to. It never will again. But that is life. And i could do more, should do more -
to be the most desirable woman for you. And you are learning your own strength. You are sheltered in my life, in the safety of my harbor.
And that sets you free to try things that previously were dreams but now wait for you in tomorrows afternoon...
And that which holds you so dear - my heart, pounding hollow in my chest - fears that your heart will find another and chose that path.
You are my destiny. I sensed you before i found you. I knew you were there, near. I could feel the pull and knew the answering echo of mutual hungers.
Ask P. He knows. I told my brother as we rode, more than once... He may remember, it is true.
You shelter me so totally and make my bed safe and warm. I never want to be parted from you. Yet it does happen. And even just sitting at home
there is separation. You on the laptop over there and me here. But also a warm camraderie and comfortable acceptance of each others everything.
Thank you for your arms. Thank you for your shoulders. Thank you for your hands.
My dreams are in your arms. My world is on your shoulders. My heart is in your hands.
I set you free on this path because your freedom is crucial to your power to choose. If you choose me when you are free, then you have truly chosen me...
You have already chosen me, but every breath brings a new choice, once decided it can be revoked... Demanding, ain't i?